Healing Broken Bones

“You look really well”, people suggest, in surprised and questioning tones.
Like there is meant to be a ‘look’ on what it looks like to be nursing fractured bones.
“I’m exhausted and I ache” with a “thank you” I reply,
I would like to say “I’m really great” but that would be a lie.
If only you were to see me struggle every day, perhaps then you would be more mindful with those ‘caring’ comments you say.
Of course I am most grateful to complimented and I do see it as kind,
But sometimes what I truely wish is for someone to read my mind.
Because then you would think deeply about what you have to share,
And instead of using words you would wrap me in your arms with care.
I reflect so intensely on how much we store away and hide,
The feelings, the emotions, the frustrations pushed deep inside.
How sad it is to live in a culture where we can not be truely free,
To express ourselves more deeply, truely, authentically.
I live a lifestyle where I call upon my ancestors for support,
With archetypes, the planets, Mother Earth I have close rapport.
How grateful I am to hold such close bonds with these,
As often with the realease of emotion I am brought down to my knees.
They hold me, I feel safe, when I close my eyes or look upon the skies,
The tears flowing like ancient rivers as I let out my solemn cries.
Pain, suffering and fears I have never felt like this before,
but that’s okay because in this life I learn to weather out the storm.
Of course I have experienced pain, hurt and fear in the past,
But I have to continually remind myself and beleive it when I say that this “will not last”.
The ‘wounded healer’ doing my best to keep my feet upon ground,
Using this opportunity I learn, I teach, I listen to my spirit and soul in moments so profound.
To be kind, gentle “go slowly” with myself in times of need,
Listening to my body, not everything needs to be done with the utmost of speed.
I can slow down, letting go of the frustrations to take my time,
Remember Jessica, simply place your trust in the Mother Divine.
I remind myself of this as my daily affirmation “all is as it needs to be”,
Within healing my broken bones I find peace and harmony.
So it now feels right to turn to you with all that I have said,
I hope you find this speaks to you as I rest upon my bed.

My little message to you, on this day as I reflect…
When I hear you say “I’m Fine”, that I may reject.
Because ‘I see you’ deeper than you know,
I understand that often life is about putting on a show.
I hear your quiet whispers of doubt underneath your “I’m okay”,
Let me hold you, with my energy, in a Shamanic healing way.
Allow yourself to trust me, because I understand your desire to heal,
To remove the mask, to embrace the tears, it’s okay to allow yourself to feel.
Let me hold you in your energy of light that you have brought to me,
Know that you will shed your layers, then too you will truely see.
You will see the beauty in the light and in the dark,
You will not be afraid to go deep within, for there you find your spark.
Trust your path dear one, trust your soul peices that you will find,
Let this journey begin, have faith, leave your old stories behind.
Aho.